Thoughts: Guys

ok so there is gunna be a lot in this post so stick with me....

Michael: We all know how I feel about him.

The Ex: My ex boy friend from middle school resently came back into my life, and I have been wondering if anything would come from it.....The catch? He has a baby and if getting a devorce when he gets done with bootcamp. That's right. He is in the Navy. I know I know I couldn't pick someone who was staying close by. But the thing is I don't even understand why I like him again. It just kinda happened. But nothing will happen until it's over with his wife. And even then I plan on walking on this ice very carefuly. I mean I don't want to be the rebound for him. I went and saw him today a few times. The first time I talked to him again in five years was on the playground near my house. We just talked for a little bit then he had to leave so I hugged him, told him to be safe, and we parted ways. But then he saw me walking home and asked if I wanted a ride, and I said if you want to I don't care either way, he said well then get in. So I did. I thought it was nice of him not to want me to walk home alone, even though the playground is less than a mile from my house.

So where does this leave Michael and I? I really don't know...I mean I never really knew where Michael and I stood to begin with. With the whole not seeing him in four years, and now he can't come see me like he planned because of the army. The truth is I don't know what I want. I can't stop looking for my fairy tale. I dono. But the worst part is it's not like I can go out on a date with each of them and see who I click better with. Their both in some branch of the Military. Both of them are great guys, both can make me laugh, both want to help me get back to the person I was going to be before "The mistake", both want to help heal my heart. I just don't know....


In other news. The whole wanting to not be so fat. I'm gunna try again, and maybe this time I will be able to keep with it. Gatta kick my moms butt!