Stuck in my head. I cannot seem to stop thinking. It is making me crazy let me tell you! I found out Michael is coming to see me! I cannot wait. But with the joy of it comes worry.....I mean I haven't been flesh to flesh next to him in over 4 years.....that's a long freakin time! I mean, I don't even know how we'll act around each other! I have changed so much since I was a freshman in High School. There are some mornings I wake up, look in the mirror and think, "How did you become this person?" What was the point that really changed me? I mean I guess it doesn't really matter. But I worry that even though he knows I'm different he'll expect me to be who I was, not who I am. And I am afraid that because of that we won't work. I mean we are in something that is sort of like a relationship.....But email, phone calls, letters, and texting are WAY WAY different from being around each other! I mean you can hit it off with someone that way but when your face to face its like OMG WE SO DO NOT WORK!!! I dono I have a feeling that I am over thinking this big time. But again that is just part of who I am. I over think, and worry, and freak out over what could be the worst so that if I have to face it I can deal. I wonder if I always did that or if it started after mono, my heart, and "the mistake"......I don't know. And I am willing to bet I never will. Welp......I think I'll go find things I can pack up to take home.....Night (eventualy) and remember,
We're all a little mad here.
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