Late Night Thoughts

It;s amazing what happens when you're awake, unable to sleep. Where your mind can wander. For example, wondering why someone would cheat on you. Then you turn the TV on to a movie to take your mind off things. And the movie you put on is Dear John...It makes you wonder why she would do that to him...To most women this movie doesn't really mean a whole hell of a lot. But for us Military girlfriends, wifes, or whatever it hits home. For me it makes me wonder how she could ever do that. I read the book and watch the movie and ask myself why she would give up that kind of love. Some of us search forever for that and never find it. Yet she finds it and just walks away. I don't understand...Although I really should give up trying to understand what goes on with this world. *sigh* I guess I'm just feeling extra down because I miss my soldier. I want him home so badly I can taste it. Our one year is on the 20th. It breaks my heart that we can't be together for it. Even more that breaks my heart is that I have to go to my Aunts funeral. She died a few days ago. She was never really very healthy. But the worst part is because I wasn't close to her I'm not really that upset about it. I'm sure that will change when I get there...But its hard to imagine making our one year even more sad then it was already gonna be. And I hate that so much. *sigh* it just isn't fair...It doesn't help that we can't be together for our one year...I guess I'm done for now.

Remember we're all a little mad here.