Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Um....I love how much i care about people. Sometimes it is my BIGGEST down fall, but for the most part I love how much I care about people. In today's world everyone is always so worried about themselves and then never take the time to worry about someone else. I try to focus more on helping someone have a better day, or being the rock that someone might need to get through something difficult. Now mind you I have my moments of begin selfish, who doesn't? But I try to have more selfless moments.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Making mistakes. We all make mistakes. But I have a lot of trouble forgiving myself for making them. I often feel like I have to be perfect 100% of the time and it makes me crazy when I'm not. I have to get a grip and realize that mistakes in life are needed.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
I haven't forgiven "The Mistake" for what he did to me and how much he hurt me. And I often wonder if I will ever be able to let go of it all.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Be Belle in Disney. It is something I have ALWAYS wanted. And I really think I would be good at it! I am great with kids, I love Disney, I can dance, I can sing, I have an amazing stage presence. So with hard work and good luck maybe my dream will come true. Who knows :)
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Day 01: Something you hate about yourself.
I hate my looks. I always have. I cannot stand how thin my hair is, how fat and chubby I am. I hate how my eyes are an ugly brown color. I hate just over all how I look. I often feel like there is too much of me and I take up too much space because of all my fat. *Sigh* I have a really low self esteem and Michael gets so mad at me for it lol. He tries to build me up all the time. But I see all these cute little Florida girls walking around campus and I'm like why can't I be that thin? And when I try to work out and loose the weight I don't see results as quickly as I want to so I give up on it, then get even more depressed over it. Which blows. Anywho, day one done :)
Monday, October 18, 2010
So behind
wow. it has been forever since I updated. i really should keep up with this better lol. So one of my fellow blogger friends has inspired me to do a Challenge for 30 days. Here is the challenge:
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
So there is that... Ok so here is our weekend together because I don't think I have posted that yet :)
This is how Michael surprise visit came to be:
So a little before the surprise. Michael had told me that because he had just gotten there they were not going to let him leave post AT ALL! No mileage pass, no leave, no nothing. I was MAJORLY upset! I cried on and off for 9 whole days! No joke. For 9 days I couldn’t eat, sleep, focus on school. Nothing. I felt like a broken person because my ONE chance of seeing him before he deployed was gone. I was PISSED!
Fast forward to Friday :) well he told me that Friday he would have some thing to do all day and he wouldn’t be able to talk. However, he was calling me an AWFUL lot for someone who shouldn’t be able to talk to me! Lol. I knew something was up but I didn’t know what. I thought that my friend Dani (Whom I meet on my support site tehehehe) was the one who was coming to see me. So she calls after telling me she is lost but she is on campus and says,
“well come outside and stand by the road so I know which one is your building”
“Ok bye”
“NO! stay on the phone with me!”
“Dani the phone’s gunna die in the stair well”
Phone dies
Dani calls back “Ok I am here where are you”
“I’m fucking walkin outside and I don’t see you” At this point I saw a guy walking towards me in ACUs. Understand that ever since the moment Michael told me he couldn’t come I had been seeing ACUs EVERYWHERE or something else to remind me of him, like couples walking to class hand in hand stuff like that, so when I see this guy I think to myself “great ANOTHER guy in ACUs to make me miss Michael even more! WONDERFUL!” As I am thinking this I begin to say again
“I don’t see yo---MICHAEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
At this point I realized that the soldier walking towards me was mine!!!!!
I ran and JUMPED on him with like MAJOR force, I also threw my flip flop off my foot because it was making me trip. I hit him so hard I knocked the air out of him!! It was so cute. It was like I jumped on him and had my legs around him and everything lol 100% PERFECT
Then I started to cry REALLY hard saying, "Omg Michael i can't believe you're here omg omg" Over and over. I said it like 20000000000000000 times LOL
After a few minutes of saying that I kept saying "is it really you!?!?!?!?! Please tell me I'm not dreaming!!!" And he said, "Baby you're not dreaming I love you" and he kissed me (I had been kissing him like every 3 seconds)
So after I was calm enough to open the door to the dorm, I showed him my dorm and we talked for a bit (Me still bursting into tears saying omg omg omg you’re here!!!) then we got him so flip flops from Wal-mart because all he had were his boots. After that we ate at CiCi's pizza and we came back to school to get some sleep. He stayed with a guy in the JORTC program.
Day 2
We got up super early! I think it was because we were so happy to be together on our first vacation!!! We went to the food court at Caribbean Beach and got something to eat then went back to the park. So we go get him a park ticket (4 day park hopper with Active Military discount only $124!!!!!!!!) and went to Epcot to get dinner (Coral Reef {Sp?} which was SO YUMMY! And he spent a TON on it! It was our major splurge while on our first vacation lol) and I showed him around the Yacht and Beach Club (Where my family and I usually stay over the summer). Then we headed over to the Magic Kingdom to watch the fireworks, he said he liked them a lot even though he isn’t a fan of fireworks, he just don’t see the point to them I guess LOL. But I cried because it is on my bucket list to watch fireworks in Disney with the love of my life, and I got to cross it off. How amazing is that?!?!?!??! Then we went back to FSC. I also told him that we WERE getting up early to go into a park! Or I would hurt him, he laughed at me and say ok baby I love you. I told him I love you too and off to sleep we went :)
Day 3
so we got up and went to Downtown Disney so he could get new flip flops because the wal-mart ones messed up his feet BIG time! So after some wonderful shopping we went to extra magic hours. We only did a few rides (3 or 4) but he promised we would have MANY MANY more trips to Disney ahead of us, which made me smile MAJORLY!! So we had to leave early so I could finish my paper for Sociology and he helped me with it! He told me I did a very good job on it and he was proud of me. Which again made me smile.
Day 4
I had class at 10. After class we went to lunch at Olive Garden, then we went to Michael's and he got me some scrapbooking stuff, then sadly he had to leave after like....45 minutes of me crying and us cuddling. But it was the best surprise ever!!!!!!!!!!
OK THEN! I think that is a good enough update.
*please note that somethings have been changed. For question message me personally. :)
Remember, we're all a little mad here <3
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
So there is that... Ok so here is our weekend together because I don't think I have posted that yet :)
This is how Michael surprise visit came to be:
So a little before the surprise. Michael had told me that because he had just gotten there they were not going to let him leave post AT ALL! No mileage pass, no leave, no nothing. I was MAJORLY upset! I cried on and off for 9 whole days! No joke. For 9 days I couldn’t eat, sleep, focus on school. Nothing. I felt like a broken person because my ONE chance of seeing him before he deployed was gone. I was PISSED!
Fast forward to Friday :) well he told me that Friday he would have some thing to do all day and he wouldn’t be able to talk. However, he was calling me an AWFUL lot for someone who shouldn’t be able to talk to me! Lol. I knew something was up but I didn’t know what. I thought that my friend Dani (Whom I meet on my support site tehehehe) was the one who was coming to see me. So she calls after telling me she is lost but she is on campus and says,
“well come outside and stand by the road so I know which one is your building”
“Ok bye”
“NO! stay on the phone with me!”
“Dani the phone’s gunna die in the stair well”
Phone dies
Dani calls back “Ok I am here where are you”
“I’m fucking walkin outside and I don’t see you” At this point I saw a guy walking towards me in ACUs. Understand that ever since the moment Michael told me he couldn’t come I had been seeing ACUs EVERYWHERE or something else to remind me of him, like couples walking to class hand in hand stuff like that, so when I see this guy I think to myself “great ANOTHER guy in ACUs to make me miss Michael even more! WONDERFUL!” As I am thinking this I begin to say again
“I don’t see yo---MICHAEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
At this point I realized that the soldier walking towards me was mine!!!!!
I ran and JUMPED on him with like MAJOR force, I also threw my flip flop off my foot because it was making me trip. I hit him so hard I knocked the air out of him!! It was so cute. It was like I jumped on him and had my legs around him and everything lol 100% PERFECT
Then I started to cry REALLY hard saying, "Omg Michael i can't believe you're here omg omg" Over and over. I said it like 20000000000000000 times LOL
After a few minutes of saying that I kept saying "is it really you!?!?!?!?! Please tell me I'm not dreaming!!!" And he said, "Baby you're not dreaming I love you" and he kissed me (I had been kissing him like every 3 seconds)
So after I was calm enough to open the door to the dorm, I showed him my dorm and we talked for a bit (Me still bursting into tears saying omg omg omg you’re here!!!) then we got him so flip flops from Wal-mart because all he had were his boots. After that we ate at CiCi's pizza and we came back to school to get some sleep. He stayed with a guy in the JORTC program.
Day 2
We got up super early! I think it was because we were so happy to be together on our first vacation!!! We went to the food court at Caribbean Beach and got something to eat then went back to the park. So we go get him a park ticket (4 day park hopper with Active Military discount only $124!!!!!!!!) and went to Epcot to get dinner (Coral Reef {Sp?} which was SO YUMMY! And he spent a TON on it! It was our major splurge while on our first vacation lol) and I showed him around the Yacht and Beach Club (Where my family and I usually stay over the summer). Then we headed over to the Magic Kingdom to watch the fireworks, he said he liked them a lot even though he isn’t a fan of fireworks, he just don’t see the point to them I guess LOL. But I cried because it is on my bucket list to watch fireworks in Disney with the love of my life, and I got to cross it off. How amazing is that?!?!?!??! Then we went back to FSC. I also told him that we WERE getting up early to go into a park! Or I would hurt him, he laughed at me and say ok baby I love you. I told him I love you too and off to sleep we went :)
Day 3
so we got up and went to Downtown Disney so he could get new flip flops because the wal-mart ones messed up his feet BIG time! So after some wonderful shopping we went to extra magic hours. We only did a few rides (3 or 4) but he promised we would have MANY MANY more trips to Disney ahead of us, which made me smile MAJORLY!! So we had to leave early so I could finish my paper for Sociology and he helped me with it! He told me I did a very good job on it and he was proud of me. Which again made me smile.
Day 4
I had class at 10. After class we went to lunch at Olive Garden, then we went to Michael's and he got me some scrapbooking stuff, then sadly he had to leave after like....45 minutes of me crying and us cuddling. But it was the best surprise ever!!!!!!!!!!
OK THEN! I think that is a good enough update.
*please note that somethings have been changed. For question message me personally. :)
Remember, we're all a little mad here <3
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