Just Lost

I don't know. Its been a while since I posted last. I don't really know how I feel about much of anything.

Drama with the middle school ex. I haven't heard from him since his last letter I got on like the 8th...It is now with 17th. He told me somethings...But he also said he doesn't know what to do. And because of that I feel...Stuck..Lost..and so many other things...I just...I guess I just can't see why it's so hard for him is all. I hope I get some answers soon because I feel like I'm going crazy.

School is almost over. I'm trying to pack up my stuff now. But I ran out of boxes. I still feel like this isn't what I wanted from my life. But this is where I am so I guess this is what I have to live with for now...

Michael. We are in a pretty hard place right now. About a week ago someone else kissed me. And I let them. I dono how I feel about that. Michael and I had a huge fight over it which is 100% understandable. I just...I feel so alone here. I mean I want someone I can go to when I'm upset and the fact that I haven't seen Michael in over 5 years just makes this so much harder on us. We are "broken up" but we are working on it. I regret kissing Nick because of the problems it caused with Michael and I but at the same time I don't regret it because it was the first time in a while that I didn't feel so......Ignored. I dono if that makes sense but that's how I feel.

"The Mistake" is happy which makes me unhappy. I really don't understand why I care. I might go talk to the consular about all the issues I have over him. Maybe I will finally be able to get over him if I do.

But for now I guess that's all I have to say about my issues. I hope I get some answers soon and I hope I ca find some peace. Until next time remember,

We're all a little mad here.