So can I just say that I am a MAJOR FAIL!?!?!?! Ug, life on this end has been getting so CRAZY! With all this drama I have going on in my life it is like crazy! I've had drama with school, Michael, my little and her roommate. And it has just ug been getting me so down. I really get my school stuff done, try to talk to Michael, and sleep....I'll TRY to post more, I pinky swear :)
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Not to be morbid and negative but I hope I never have to burry Michael...I hope to god he comes home alive and well every single time he has to deploy...It scares me to death thinking that I could open the door one day or answer my phone and find out that the love of my life, the person who saved me from being this shell of a person, is gone forever. I don't want to imagine it...A girl in one of my theater classes asked me what I would do if my boy friend died. Which was a TOTAL bitch question to ask considering the circumstances. I told her I would die also. I started to tear upi and I couldn't hardly speak. In that moment I didn't know if I wanted to hit her more, or cry more. But anywho...yeah there ya go. moving on
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
I have a lot of people who do that. All my friends, Michael, my mom, my god children...Yeah moving on now lol
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Again, i have had a lot of people do this to me...I really try to just ignore them and move on. I try to remember all of the people who love me and want to support me...Sometimes I fail and get SUPER pissed off at people, but I do try.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
I think everyone has more then one person they drifted away from and wish they hadn't. My friend Alexis, Kayla....Idk lots of people...But as life goes on you change, other people change. What you want from life and in life changes...So I guess it only makes sense that sometimes the people you have in your life change.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
...I wish that I could forget "the mistake"...All the events that include him really hold me back in EVERY part of my life. And it really pisses me off...But no matter how hard I try I can't seem to let go of what he did to me...Or how to forgive him for it...
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
...Idk....my smile I guess...Or my sometimes loving nature...Or my ablity to just go for things...Idk....Never really asked before...But I will now lol
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Hm.....My brains....Idk why because I am really damn smart! But it seems like people don't notice that about me....It is probably part my fault since being the A student in class isn't my life goal like it can be for my sister.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
....I have WAY too many of these to write a letter to all...So we will just make a general letter :)
* Wow...I have had some shity days in my life...But because you put...Emotions to words and words to music, I feel like I'm not alone. Like somewhere someone in this world know EXACTLY how I am feeling...And feels just as lost as I do...It really gives me comfort to know that I am not going through these crap days alone, that I can pull up my itunes account or the internet and somewhere some song or songs, will make me feel better...I've always said that one song can change all my views or emotions on something...And that has never been more true then when I turned to music to remind me I'm not alone. So thank you all.
Mary
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
...None
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
...At&t is stupid so they cut off my phone because of all the charges on it (we haven't gotten the bill yet for it so it's not like we didn't fucking pay the bill!) I had all of those charges because I was talking to Michael, since he is deployed that to me is a big freakin deal...SO I was forced to live without my phone for 2.5 hours and I really think it almost killed me. With Michael in Afganistan and knowing that if anything happens it is ME that they will call....The thought that I wouldn't know if something went wrong was tearing me apart...Yeah that can NEVER happen again! Or next time the AT&T person I deal with, WILL end up with a black eye.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
"the mistake" enough said.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Hm....idk I read a lot of books...But I often agreed with the topic before I read it lol....I really have no idea lol
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
I see no problem with it...In my opinion, god does NOT make mistakes. Everyone is born how they are for a reason! And even if we don't understand these reasons it is NOT our place to judge. Love isn't something that you can help or control. It's...crazy and spontaneous and unexpected....maybe god is trying to teach other tolerance for something they cannot understand...Idk. But I DO know that I see no reason to hold them back simply because they are gay. how dumb to do something like that in my opinion.
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