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Wow ok so I have a HUGE update....Ready...Set...go!

Michael's visit was amazing. We had an amazing time together. It was easy to talk in person just like it is over te so different he phone and texting. He makes me laugh, he spoiled me rotten, he was sweet, it was just. Omg it was amazing. That's all there is to say. We hung out at his grandparents Sunday night and watched movies, also amazing. We just get along together so weel and that was a MAJOR weight off of my shoulders. I love him. I can truly say that I love Michael so much. I don't know what I would do without him. I haven't felt this way about anyone since "the mistake". Which when I told an ex that it really upset him, but it's true. I haven't been that happy in so long, and it felt so good to just be happy. To not be afraid of what he thought. To not worry about if I was good enough. To just be me. I loved that feeling more than anything.

I am in San Francisco visiting my sister right now. I love her to death. I would give my life for my sister, but at the same time she doesn't understand me sometimes. We are so different from each other. She loves school and learning new things and being pretty close to the best at everything. Where with me I don't care if I am the best or worse at most things. I don't care about being the best at my job. I mean for gods sake one of my life dreams has ALWAYS been to be a mother. To stay at home and take care of a family. My sister just can't understand or accept that. Which can sometimes make it really hard for us to always get along. She reads my facebook like its a book. Which makes it hard for me to just be me, which has always been really important to me. I always feel very....Judged when I'm around her. And I don't know how to handle it. But I do love her very much. And Like I said I would give my life for her.

Anywho I am gunna watch a show with my sister then go to bed. I am really tired, and I have a small cold which majorly sucks. Goodnight all.

And remember, we're all a little mad here.