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To start.....three cheers for five years - mayday parade

It has been a while since I wrote. I finished with my first year of college. It feels so weird. To know that in 3 years I will be done and on my own...I'm ready...I hope.

I feel really lost. I mean...UG!

Middle school ex is just.....Complicated to say the least lol. That really is all I know. Is that this is complicated and it makes life 100% harder when he won't open up to me and tell me how he feels about stuff. It's making me crazy!

Michael and I still fight a lot....It is also making me crazy. The plan is he'll be able to come see me May 28th-31st.....We'll see if it happens this time...I hope it does...I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. I just...I don't know what to do and because I am who I am not knowing what to do makes me feel even more out of control than I already do which adds to my stress MAJORLY! I just wish I could close my eyes and everything would just stop. No more being lost over all this drama, no more not being able to sleep. Just for it to all stop. UG! Fml. And I just realized the story I was writing got left in FL in my storage unit. UG! I freaking hate this x1000000000000000.99

Remember we're all a little mad here.